It’s been a long time coming. It’s almost humbling to see how far I’ve come. Soon I will be graduating college this semester with a B.A. in Sociology and I recently decided that I will be spending more time on music in spite of my parents’ truest expectations of me along with the stigma that is often attached to pursuing music. When I come across something like a video, a quote, or even a person who inspires me, I am almost convinced things happen for a reason and that someone is watching over me.
I think about where I started, when I felt like a lost teenager entering into adulthood, who dropped out of college took a break from both school and work Fall of 2016 to.. do some soul searching. Even though I felt as though those around doubted me, I still fought to build the strength and courage to believe in myself. To believe in my interests, passions, abilities, tastes, and most importantly, my vision. I think about the struggle I endured and I wouldn’t trade positions with anybody else in the world. Two years later, I could say I am filled with more knowledge, insight, and most importantly, perspective, about where I stand today and where I want to be in the future. I have a long way to go, but I am glad I have carved a path for myself that I feel more confident to pursue. I don’t know exactly where it will take me or where I will be, but I know I’ll be where I ought to be. Though I had moments of strengths, I had just twice as many moments of weaknesses. I remember those times so vividly when I felt so low I didn’t see the potential in myself, but I am writing this today to remind my future self that the most precious diamonds are made under the greatest pressure, and without the right discipline and sacrifice I have much more to lose. When the going gets tough, I just have to remind myself that there is nothing wrong with being passionate about what you love and believe in, that I just have to keep believing in myself even when no one else does. For me, it has and will always be music. My love for music was one of the reasons I created this blog site, to share and inspire others with my love for soul-touching music.
Music was there all along when no one else was and for that sole reason, I will continue to dedicate my life learning it. They say that self- confidence is the key to success, but they don’t tell you the process and journey it remotely comes with to even get there. I just have to trust in myself, in the process, and most importantly, in God’s plans. Here is to a new chapter, here’s to my #futureself.